Contemplation

For that of which you do not know,

for that of which you can’t control.

Be brave my dear,

don’t lose your soul….

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An Interpretation of a Quote

It would not be the first time of me sharing a thought provoked by a quote, would it? Nor it would be the first time of me sharing something that I have read from the Brain Pickings. Love what my compatriot Maria Popova is doing there. Something I would do myself, if just a bit smarter and better read.

So “get to the point, what is the said inspiration?”, you’d impatiently say. A quote. It goes like this- “Freedom is nothing but a chance to be better”. Fairly straightforward, wouldn’t you say?

But it got me thinking of how true that is. I guess, just like anything else freedom is a social construct, but more importantly, and as such even more often a construct of one’s own head. And it is odd how we tend to take parts of our freedom away, right there, in our head.

From bitter self-criticism, to no productive end, to a random thought of self-restriction such as ” I can’t do this! “, we do take away from our freedom more often than anyone else.

How one’s thought shapes one’s reality has been one of the many obsessions I have with life…and I guess this quote digs in the heart of it. Freedom( or at least an emotional freedom) is to accept one’s self truly, embrace who you are , and then push and believe that you can be better. Sound simple no, but boy it can be so hard. And has so many shades and layers.

I remember once in the past, I was so worried, it was such a matter of life and death(well instilled by my mother) for people to see me as a good person….that at times it simply handicapped me…and then one day, many years later, I decided that instead of worrying of what I may be perceived, I can just be what I want to be seen as. Focus on being….and I felt so much freer. Simple you’d say, but I wasn’t simple for me to get there. On the way, I had to struggle and accept who I am.

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“Je T’Aime” or How Powerful Perception is Indeed

This was something I was exposed to and got fairly obsessed with last night, as well as an interesting self-realization of how emotion takes over perception at times.

But let’s start form the beginning or in other words another internet discovery that left me breathless and weepy. This time due to the magic of Facebook.  A friend had posted a link to a wonderful, heart-felt performance of the Belgian singer Lara Fabian. The song is named “Je T’Aime”- I Love You. On the sidebar there was a description of the events surrounding  the performance, which went like this:

“Unique performance of a true woman in love ! Incredible !
Lara Fabian – Belgian singer -songwriter ,  loses the man of her heart -Greg , whom she wanted to marry . She buried him, but could not cancel a big show. She managed to come out on stage and sing somehow, but during this song – ” I love you” she flushed into tears, went into shock and could not continue.
And then the whole audience sang for her ” We love … ”
At the end of the song her producer Rick Alisson , who accompanies her on the piano says, ” See? And you say that you have nothing to live for”. Live for them, people !”

Well and then I watched the clip….

Admit, did you weep a little? Did you feel her pain? Me? I did…I did a whole a lot. And the text is just as touching:

“I admit (~okay), there existed
other ways for us to leave each other.
A few shards of glass
might have helped us
in this bitter silence.
I decided to forgive
the mistakes we can make
from loving too much.

I admit often the little girl
in me requested you.
Almost like a mother
you tucked me in, protected me
I stole from you this blood
that we never should have shared.
Lost for words, for dreams
I will scream:

I love you, I love you
Like a fool, like a soldier
Like a movie star
I love you, I love you
Like a wolf, like a king
Like a man that I am not…
You see, I love you like that much

I admit I confided in you
all my smiles, all my secrets,
even those for which only a brother
is the undeclared guardian of.
In this house of stone
Satan was watching us dance,
so I wanted a war
of bodies that made the peace to each other

(Chorus)”

Now, humor me for a minute, go ahead watch it one more time, just like I did…cry a little bit…or more…. if you can.

And then imagine that all the sudden you want to learn a little bit more about this great love that moved this performer so deeply….Only there is not much to find, it did not exist to begin with.

The truth hidden behind this moving performance sound more like this:

“During the concert, there is a special emphasis on “Je t’aime” which is unexpectedly sung in a large part by the audience, leaving a tearful Fabian caught by surprise”

That is all it is…as powerful it is, it solely an emotional response of an artist to her public… Now watch this more extended cut of the performance and tell me if you see something different?

Did you feel duped, like I did? Are we such suckers for romance? But more importantly did recognize how powerful perception is?

None the less, I am absolutely grateful to observe such an incredible performance. How powerful ones soul can be when naked!

Good night world!

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A dicovery

I love The Voice and I am a super fan of Blake Shelton because of it… And Christina, how I feel about her, you should know by now…. she is the girl with the absolute voice, the kind that give me the ultimate goose bums. So it was a nice discovery this morning when I browsed You Tube to see this. Plus it resonates emotionally with me right now.  Hope you enjoy it world and have a great morning! (PS: Sorry, YouTube does not let you watch it on my blog. But please click on the link to YouTube. Promise, it’s worth it)

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Time

Linger on my dear,
…for a second, for a moment, for a day….
The future may be quite unclear,
but please linger on….

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I Heart Chicago Fall

Lets be honest, here in Chicago we have moody weather- long Winter followed by a non-existent Spring and questionable Summer. One never knows what to expect, so you are better off on any day to be prepared for all three seasons….But then comes fall and it is long and warm and beautiful and full of golden colors. Our Fall rarely disappoints and is one of the best things about living here. It only helps, that my favorite things to enjoy during the year also happen in the fall. So I want to share them with you.

I love live music and I feel blessed that there are so many opportunities here in my home town to listen to it, but by far my favorite music festival is The World Music Festival. It is fun, eclectic, and you get both exposure to Chicago’s many music venues as well as opportunities to watch many free performances.

The next thing I absolutely love in the fall is no surprise to anyone, who has previously visited this blog- The Chicago International Film Festival. Yes, I am a movie junkie and proud of it, and this is the fix I wait for all year  long… What I love about it most are the special screenings, where you get to hear film makers and actors talk about their movie.

And then there is a newer thing that is happening  in the last couple of years and is a perfect way to spend a warm Autumn day- Open House Chicago.

What is it, you ask? Basically for this one weekend, which happens to be next one up, over a hundred architectural buildings are open around Chicago for visitors. You get to roam and explore and it is so much fun. But more importantly, absolutely free! How can you possibly beat that?!

And last, but not least one more thing, that I absolutely enjoy in the Fall( and a word of warning: it is absolutely obvious)- the colors. Two places come in mind to enjoy this: University of Chicago campus- I just love a Fall stroll there…

…and Chicago Botanical Gardens- such a beautiful place in  the Autumn.

Chicago Botanic Garden

So this is my Fall Chicago, in the most perfect of ways….

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Gone

There has been some noise  these days on social media about a girl who quit her job via a dance on YouTube. Before I continue, see this….

Before we go anywhere else, she was just recently on Queen Latifa’s talk show and got an offer for a job. Curious if she ended up working there… But I digress, the song she used completely got into my head, and I felt restless to find the full version.  And so I did with a little help from the wonderful search button on YouTube.

…and I must say, I dig it. Perhaps because I like the thought of imagining myself dancing just like that, perhaps at work as well…

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